Sepang

haish haish haish

masa sudah tiba, besok bakal berangkat pulang

rindu kamu sepang

tapi bakal rindu mama lebih

abah..

senyumlah sayang

2011 bakal datang,

usia menginjak matang

bahagia mungkin menyerang

sedehsedehsedeh

dah nak balik

Sepang tercinta panggil pulang

kuliah bakal bermula

RESULT bakal menerpa

haiyok !!

villa tersayang dah lama ditinggalkan,

rindu jam loceng En.Razali,

rindu meja D.O saya :)

rindu nak melentang kat hall

Sepang !! Here I comee !!!!

:((((

i dont wish to be everything to everyone

but i would like to be something to someone

♥♥♥

"If you love me only in my dreams, let me be asleep forever."

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

terima kasih

jangan MUSNAHKAN kegembiraan saya

♥♥♥

Confession of a friend

♥♥♥

i've watched over you and stood silently,
and hide my heart's feelings of sadness
For the reason, the reason that we had to stay as friends.
I wanted to tell you many times
but I held onto my confession
But now I'll confess
I love you.

♥♥♥
You hold my hand, and say you only have me,
and that a friend like me is a really big blessing,
Whenever you speak to me every time you press my love a little more

insane

damn !!

gedik suda

mama, sorry terlebih gedik ni

tapi mama saya cakap,

gedik sorangsorang takpa

jangan gedik depan orang

heeeee

♥♥♥

saya akan terus bersabar untuk awak

terima kasih

saya menangis lagi

cukup!

no more tears !!

senyum sayang !

sedang senyum

jangan mengalah dengan keadaan

not worth at all

be strong to reach the strength

besok akan ada lembaran baru

sudah ada

saya bahagia

♥♥♥♥♥

" Maafkan aku kerna menyintamu

Maaf jikaku tak padan denganmu

Tapi ku berjanji

Kau juita hati

Akan ku jaga hingga akhir nanti

Maafkan aku terus memujamu

Maaf aku yang terlanjur merindu

Didalam hujan renyai

Aku mengintai langit

Mengharap engkau akan setuju

Menyintai aku.... "

♥entah♥

orang yang sayangkan aku bukanlah orang yang aku sayang

orang yang aku sayang actually sayang aku (dia cakap) tapi dia terikat

damn !

apa nak buat

jangan buat apaapa

tanpa cinta tak mengapa

sahabat sentiasa ada

lihat sahaja

dan senyumlah :)

orang yang sayangkan aku sentiasa ada untuk aku

tapi aku sentiasa ada untuk orang yang aku sayang

sekian lama berlarutan

~ waah ayat ~

bila kita nak, cinta sentiasa tak bersyarat

walaupun tak bisa memiliki dan susah nak diungkap

bak kata lagu black

"kau ibarat permata di dalam hiasan kaca,

yang tak bisa disentuh hanya boleh dipandang"

"ingin aku berpesan kepadamu kekasih sekiranya

engkau merinduiku hubungilah aku disini"

(damn ! lagu pesanan buat kekasih la pulak)

♥besok bisa menjanjikan sebuah lembaran baru♥

♥ No matter how bad things get, you got to go on living, even if it KILLs you ♥

kesilapan adalah guru terbaik sebagai panduan hidup masa depan,

bila kita buat silap, kita menyesal dan kita dapat pengajaran

masa tu kita akan sedar betapa

Allah itu Maha Berkuasa

Maha Mengetahui dan Maha Besar.

♥Allah sentiasa menerangi jalan yang gelap untuk hamba-hambaNYA♥

♥ terima kasih Allah ♥

toink ♥

♥♥ kalau aku rindu kau boleh ♥♥

♥♥toinktoinktoink♥♥

♥♥beli PINTU KEMANA SAHAJA kan senang♥♥

♥♥cepatcepat, beli dari doraemon♥♥

susahnya macam ni,

heyhey, maaf ya aku TERpaksa rindu kau sebab

hati aku menjerit panggil kau. parah susah weyh !

ibarat kucing mengembek panggil anaknya.

derita nak mengeluar suara mmmbeeeekkkk tu..

wahwah, terpaksa lagi?

betol la terima kasih untuk mr.kau♥

hati aku dah benarbenar sembuh,

aku dah kena cucuk dengan imunisasi,

so, kalau luka lagi, takda hal lahh

kebal ni

lambat betol nak dapat jawapan

tak mengapa, saya sabar menanti :)

♥♥♥♥♥

terima kasih :)

sayang sangat kamu semua !!

" I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K.
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all they say
Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize it
I have no hestitaion
My imagination just stole me away
(Still...) Still I believe
(I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

Love's for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) And i won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
(Don't wanna wake up alone anymore...) "

~ damn, aku suka lagu ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD ni ~

NichKhun Horvejkul

mama nak dia boleh ? ini bakal menantu mama (mungkin) hahaha tapi sekarang dia sedang sebok mengurus kerjaya demi keluarga yang bakal dibina. hari-hari dia nyanyi untuk i mama, through lappy i lagi :D rindu dia sangat (waahhh boleh ke) ngeheeeee.. gediks dah ni :D

saya harap mama tak halang cinta kami (kami ke) waddup !! i gila kat dia dah mommy, tolong la.
ada tak patung muka macam dia? nak beli.. sape ada jual !? tolong pm saya (hahaha)

~insane~

truth or dare ♥ i choose truth ♥

Who was your first crush?
Salman Khan (masa kecik2 nih) hahaha

If you were marooned on an island with just a single person, who would you like it to be?
nichKhun Horvejkul

Would you ever cheat with your girlfriend/boyfriend?
never, dislike hate it !

Amongst all the individuals that you know, which girl/guy would you like to date?
Dzulhafeez (waaahhhh, too dare haa)

If you woke up one day and notice that you are invisible, then what will be the first thing that you would like to do?
naik flight pergi korea cari NichKhun (2pm)

What is the meanest thing that you have till date?
hurt my own heart :(

Have you ever lied to your boyfriend/girlfriend? If yes, about what?
yes, i told my ex that he is too nice to me..

If you born again, what would you like to be?
myself :)

What is the strangest dream you have ever had?
wwf personality, undertaker came to my house and stare at me, weeuuhh.. scary

If you have only 24 hours left to live, what would you do?
tell someone something that he have to know, and i'll die after knowing the truth of his rejection (waddup )

If you get a chance to make anyone as your slave, who would you like that to be?
NichKhun :))))

If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?
NichKhun Harvejkul and kumpul money byk2.. then bila dah normal, blh kahwin dgn SangKekasihku

Would you marry your boyfriend/girlfriend?
of course ! (dengan izin Allah)

Do you really love your boyfriend/girlfriend?
i have none, but once i fell in love then it will never has an ending ;)

What is the stupidest thing you've done because someone dared you to?
menyanyi kuat2 dalam mcD hahaha :D

What's your favorite thing about the opposite sex?
sporting :)

What's the worst thing about being your gender?
tangisan

Every Had A Crush On Anyones Brother/Sister, If Yes Who?
nope

When was the first time you fell in love?
2 years ago

Which is your most embarrassing moment so far?
i keep on chasing someone that hurt my heart too much, and he was too proud of it. sucks !

Can you tell us about your secret fantasy?
no never :D

Which is the one person you really hate right now?
Dazlo

What’s your biggest turn on?
i start to erased all about him after he doing things to insult me, crap huh !!

Have you ever cheated on your girlfriend/boyfriend?
no, he did !

What is the main thing that attracts you to a person of the opposite sex?
how he treat and care for me :)

Have you got any secret talent?
ntah, ada kot :)

Pick one person to exchange your girlfriend/boyfriend with!
takkan :)

What is the wildest thing you have ever done in your life so far?
run away from home

Whom would you like to marry if there is a chance to do it?
lelaki yang perwatakannya seperti NichKhun (2pm)

Do you love to sleep with your teddy bear?
yeah, but its a moo :)

Tell us about your sorrow secret…
ive been left by someone that i really love without any concrete reasons, without feelings and he left just because all of a sudden he doesnt have any feelings towards me. sedangkan, on that day we both went out together with my family happily. shit !

What is the most annoying thing about your boyfriend/girlfriend?
too chicken to tell the truth about the reasons he wants to break up, back stabber and like to bad talk about me shit kau !

Do you have a crush on someone ?
yes, since years ago that i didnt fall for anyone ♥♥♥♥♥

What is the one thing you hate about your best friend?
suka seksa hati sendiri

What is the worst fear you have in life?
them !! people who i love the most leave me , mama:)

Have you been mean to anybody p?
sometimes towards people who are being rude to me

Have you had a crush on your best friend?
yes !! long time ago

Which was the lowest grade you received in school and for which subject?
addmath !! can i just keep that as secret ! hahah !!

Do you like to brush your teeth every night?
yes !!

Which animal most resembles your personality?
cat ! heeee

Who is most beautiful person you know (inside and out).
my mother

If you could date anyone in the world, who would it be?
1. NichKhun (2pm) ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
2. Won Bin ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
3. Mathew McConaughey ♥ ♥ ♥

Which famous couple throughout film would you like to be ?
step up 3D ~luke and natalie~

Which relationship appeals to you more, a wild passionate one, or a quiet calm one.
moderate please :) calm and easy but still got the passion

lunch de tengah hari ;)

menu 'lunch' hari ini : daging goreng asam jawa + ayam goreng + budu + timun ;)
sedap la betol, tuanku (abah) tambah2 nasi td.. budu tak sempat ambik gambarnya ayam goreng pun sama sebab dah tak menyempat nak makan heeeee :)

why not kita cuba :)
hey.. im asking boleh ke takpe?
:))))))

♥saranghaee ♥

suddenly !!! dupdupdapdupdupdapdupdupdap :))))) ouch
listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
~ beating more fast ~

thanks

♥ take your beautiful smile with you and don't leave it here because the sweetness of it makes me dizzy ♥

...
ive got too many story to tell
but suddenly something goes wrong and im feeling bad
too bad

i ll publish my post next time
not feelin well
NIGHT

dear kemek ;))))

no more FARIZATUL AYINA (bukan nama sebenar) today tomorrow and day after tomorrow and so on. i will miss u dear kemek... i'll wait for you dear, come home this week. rindu nak berguling dengan kau! hahah ! kamu kan selalu balik tiap2 minggu, jangan lupa balik pulak ;)

sedeh + insane

rasa sangat sedeh, sangat sangat, tapi saya masih mampu tersenyum

"jangan menangis hapus air matamu"

i feel like crying now

"take me away, no more mistakes"

tetiba teringat lagu

could i have this kiss forever by whitney houston and enrique iglesias

oouh, lagu itu hebat ;) saya sangat suka ~menyentuh hati~ suatu hari nanti lagu ini bakal ditujukan pada SANG SUAMI TERcinta, sudikah terima? siapa bakal suami saya? sila terjun klcc cepat.. "saya tuju lagu ni kat mr.sweet gorgeous nice and loving, sayang kamu sampai syurga" itu untuk bakal suami saya, saya nak bagitau waktu masa tinggal lagi 2 minit nak menikah (gatal dah ni) hahaha pastu saya nak nyanyi kat dia (saya suka nyanyi) mama jangan marah ye, impian jugak ni ;) agaknya dia tengok saya macam orang gila ke apa eyh? *_*

masa gaduh small matter, saya bagi lagu ni fix me up by ne-yo maaf saya terlebih gedik malam ni- jadi saya sambung cerita bila kitorang gaduh, saya bagi lagu ni. yelah, bila gaduh kita masing-masing ego then maybe sometimes kita ada masalah tapi terpendam dalam hati ni "hey hey you you, lagu ni untuk you, i mean for us, mmuah" hahah!! mmuah lagi? oppsss...

~ms.cheese caramel~

quote of the day

Kadang kala, orang yang kamu cintai adalah orang yang paling menyakiti hatimu dan kadang kala, teman yang membawamu ke dalam pelukannya dan menangis bersamamu adalah cinta yang tidak kamu sedari. :)

hey
♥ look at my heart. it's beating for you♥

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you

bluerghhhhh

sadness turn me on

cinta
hati sifat perasaan atau rupa paras yang jadi ukuran?
kekalkah jika rupa paras yang utama ?
well, supposed to be cinta sifat dan perasaan
tapi orang sekarang selalu pandang rupa je
bila dia rasa dia HOT jadi pasangannya pun mesti HOT
nilah senario yang selalu aku lihat

hmmm
bagi aku?
rupa bukan jadi masalah,
hati dan apa yang kau rasa itulah yang penting
pernah dulu, dia bukanlah "secantik" aaron aziz
tapi aku pun sedar aku xlah "sehensem" erra fazira
atas sebab sedar diri
terpesona dgn sifat dia, cara dia
maka berlangsunglah...

tapi, dia tetiba tak sedar diri(koma)
tinggalkan aku:(
orang salahkan aku, tapi orang tak tau
dan tanpa sebab aku dan dia "hilang"
lama sangat, barulah aku redha

kalau dulu, aku dengan dia saja. dunia aku bermula dengan dia
aku kenal semua benda sebab dia,
aku tahu perkara yang aku tak pernah tahu sebab dia
aku pergi mana-mana pun dia yang bawak.
semuanya DIA.

setelah dia pergi barulah aku kenal dunia ni,
aku mula berkawan dengan orang lain
aku bawak jalan sendiri, cuba terima kenyataan
aku ingat dia aku sedeh, jadi aku xmau ingat dia
aku ingat dia aku menangis,
jadi aku berhenti mengharap perkara yang tak pasti.
ada satu peristiwa yang buat aku terus delete dia dari ingatan
lepas peristiwa tu, aku percaya dia bukanlah yang terbaik untuk aku.

lama sangat baru aku sedar ,
"cukup cukuplah alya, sudah sudahlah menangis,
not worth crying because he didnt feel the same way"
"cukup cukuplah rasa sedih, penghinaan dan maruah yang dia pijak"
iktibar untuk aku sendiri.
kesedihan dan kepedihan menghidupkan aku
i do love you BEFORE, but now NOT ANYMORE
"when love comes, do not hold it too tight until its really yours"

im suffering for a long time period.
and now im happy with my new life
eventhough, JERKian always bad talk behind my back
its ok
they dont feel it, i feel it.

im smilling because i dont care


~im not lonely, im free~

♥ besties♥

bestfriend is the best enemy and the perfect lover
because he did accept "all of us" bad side and good side :)))

bestfriend will always be there for you no matter what,
even when u left them behind after uve got ur happiness,
but one day when u fall, u will see them stand besides u, smile and heal ur
wound :))))

~Alya-Chan~

setting

berhentilah menolak diri sendiri sebelum anda benar-benar ditolak

percayalah pada diri sendiri kerana sesungguhnya anda
punyai keistimewaan yang tidak dipunyai orang lain

senyumlah kerana ia penawar hati yang sakit,
ubat kepada rasa payah yang ada dalam hati

insane ;)

my heart is beating so fast for you
~dupdapdupdapdupdapdupdapdupdap~
You know that I adjusted myself to fit you
~try something new, doing some 'research'~
hanya kerna kau yang cukup indah
~sebab tu alya-chan jadi tak tentu hala~

cheh ! again ! wtFISH
please please help me
anyone?
weeuuhh,

Someone should have told me that it would be this hard


Anybody could've told you right from the start it's 'bout to fall apart
So rather than hold on to a broken dream, I'll just hold on to love
And I can find a way to make it, don't hold on too tight
I'll make it without you tonight
~alicia keys~

...

i realize something today that im not that perfect to be too choosy.
its a gift when someone choose to loves you.

there are many thing swinging inside my head
"u spin my head right round right round"

should i keep on work for it
"walau jauh akan kugegas berlari
walau tinggi bisa ku terbang dilangit"

or should i just giving up
"biarkan ia pergi Tuhan lebih mengerti apa yang disuratkan"

Happiness comes when you really work on it. And if you did work but still don't comes, rely on God and let Allah decide
~shadah khalil~

♥ saranghaeyo ♥

♥my sweet loving caring sporting abah♥
abah sedeh sebab dah lama alya-chan tak balik rumah.
alya-chan asyik balik rumah tokwan maulana
maaf ya abah tercinta
misai sudah tukar warna
sayang abah
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

life ♥♥

♥ Your life's like a book, you're the writer.
Write something worth-reading, so you won't regret in the end ♥

senyum ♥

senyumla ;) macam aku ni haa
(aku tunjuk cara senyum biar kau tau)
tak rugi pun dapat pahala lagi :)
kalo tak senyum nampak la gorgon kau tu ;)

teringat Perintah Puan

gambar ni dah lama, tapi rasa bahagia tengok gambar ni ;)
malam deklamasi puisi dan syarahan anjuran BADAR KTT
masa ni, Puan Ju dah turun perintah
"tidak boleh menolak, semua student DPM mesti sertai dan hadirkan diri"
masa tu dalam hati
"kenapalah KAU uji aku macam ni, kenapalah Puan Ju pilih aku untuk bersajak,
kenapa aku yang mesti berdiri atas pentas dan deklamasi sajak tu"
lepas dah selesai acara
"Puan, rasa nak buat lagi la"
heee ;)
lepas ni, xda lagi dah "turun perintah"

rasa hari ini

rindu kau la weyh !!
ingat kau la !!
sedeh pun ada :(
macam mana ni ;) boleh ke ^~^
selamat hari raya aidiladha
♥♥♥♥♥♥

slice of happiness, slice of sadness

malam itu, muahahah... xsempat nak upload semua ;)

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha,
korban hati korban jiwa korban pemikiran untuk lebih maju dalam kehidupan

orang kata, raya haji untuk orang yang ada di Mekah
(buat haji)
tapi, sebenarnya kita pun boleh sambut,
sebab ada jugak orang yang buat korban dan kenduri.
tunai tanggungjawab pun korban jugak :)

:::masa untuk korbankan pemikiran lapuk, bersikap lebih matang:::

hey me !!!

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you not to say
But if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words
Is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say
that you love me, yeah
Cause I'd already know.

What would you do (what would you do)
If my heart was torn in two?
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I Love You

(just saying I love you, saying I love you)
More than words
(just saying I love you, saying I love you)

Now that I've tried to (now that I've tried to)
Talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is
Close your eyes and just reach out your hand
And touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go

More than words
Is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say
That you love me, yeah
Cause I'd already know

(just saying I love you, saying I love you)
More than words

;) NICE IS IT.. Frankie J voice melts my heart ! the lyrics swing me higher :)

...

"kita bahagia dengan orang yang sama-sama susah dengan kita pada waktu tu,
tapi bila sudah senang, kita bahagia sendirian.." tidak mengapalah si KITA :)

♥ bakal pulang ke Kota Kerinduan ♥

besok alya chan bakal berangkat pulang ke kampung halaman tempat
tinggal mama dan tokwan tercinta. semenjak semalam mama asyik call dan tanya
"bila sayang mama nak balik" mama Alya Chan dah nak balik pun.. tapi, risau sgt nak naik bas..
macam mana??? nak naik tren, macam lama sangat. besok nak gerak kol 9 pagi :D
awalnya laa kn.. mama nanti kepulanganku..

bakal tinggalkan jiwa kesayanganku, NANA, tangan dan mataku, RUZY dan EETA..
jumpa lagi 3/1/2011.. huisshh.. lama lagi tu..
"pictures and some memories will have to get me through"

blog posting wat hal ;(

wtFISH, blog posting wat hal. xleh nak upload gambar, nak ubah font.. what happen !!
then, i have to hold my new post, how ;( haa?? banyak nak upload ni, ramai nak cerita..
then macam ni plak, bila takda mood nak cerita, ok je.. takda masalah..

akan pulang ke ISTANA KERINDUAN pada hari isnin, 15/11/2010...
mama nanti kepulanganku ;))))))
mmuahxs.. xoxo

hey you !!

im saying goodbye, No tears I cry for you

bahagia sangat:))))))
look im smilling again !!

:::: biar muka buruk jangan hati macam bangkai ::::

♥ Tamat Sudah ♥

tamat sudah peperiksaan akhir semester sesi 2010/2011, gentar tunggu result keluar pulak. *_* tarkoik *_* but, sangat tidak berpuas hati. macam mana ni.. PPL UPM, boleh tak saya ulang semula exam tu.. :( sedeh, sedeh, sedeh... nak ulang.. result saya bakal teruk nnt.. mama, abah maafkan aku :((((

upacara wajib setiap akhir semester ♥FAMILY DAY♥ tapi, lain sikit kali ni tukar jadi ♥GLAMORIOUS AND MASQUERADE DPM NIGHT ♥ lebih kurang la tu. kami pilih RETRO !! ruzy 2gether dgn aku cari la baju yang sesuai. teruja jugak ni tak sabar :))))

Malam terakhir Puan Ju.. da nak berenti pun Puan Ju. Beliau nak sambung Phd, semoga lebih sukses dan bahagia Puan. We'll never forget you, and we'll never leave your memories behind :))

Tamat sudah episod duka aku, berjaya keluar dari zon penghinaan yang sangat perit untuk ditelan ^_^
"hargailah diri kita sendiri kerana belum tentu orang lain akan hargai diri kita"

♥a heart goes swinging♥

:::you took my heart away:::

Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream but you
saw me through

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
you take my hand to guide me home and now
I'm in love

You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold
you are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start and now
I'm in love

Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here were we stand
we'll never be alone

♥♥♥♥♥♥ if i ever could let you know ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Exam and Its Final Exam !!

EXAM : Saya datang
aku : jgnla datang lagi
EXAM : dah sampai pun...

waaaarrrrggghhhhh !!!! tiga hari sebelumnya yang sangat stress.. berturut2 exam..
then esok satu paper lagi... (sempat lagi berblog) heee... penamatnya RABU !!! cepatlah datang !!! tak keruan ni... sebab rabu tu paper PUAN JU !!! arrrrgggghhh lg !! ketakutan kesejukkan, kepeningan kepengsanan bakal berlaku !! tolong calm me down...

Penang Raya Lepas !!!

lama dah baru diuploadkan.. heee.... uncle botak and ruzy join sekaki
masa raya lepas, :)))))

Saya sudah keluar dari zon GILA itu

Alhamdulillah, aku sudah benar-benar keluar dari zon kesedihan, kekecewaan, kesakitan, dan penghinaan.. BERJAYA !!!! if i could turn back time, setelah sekian lama.. akhirnya saya nekad.. sudah tak larat nak labuhkan air mata ni, mata pun seringkali menjerit minta cuti dr bekerja. i blow you away now.. tak tau apa nak ckp kt cni.. terlalu gembira.. all this while, i keep on crying.. tak ada masa nak senyum lelama sikit.. tapi sekarang, senyuman itu tak pernah lekang dari wajahku.. thanks to kamu yang membawa kegembiraan itu, membawa senyuman, walaupun sementara mungkin..

macam mana nk terangkan betapa bahagianya aku sekarang ni :))))
no more him, no more sadness, no more sorrow...
GOODBYE mr. AWFUL, JERK AND USELESS
same thing will chase you, ;)

Check dari MARA suda keluar New Phonee :D

dalam duka kita bersuka.. heee check mara saya sudah sampai.. sekali dua daa...
Alhamdulillah.. hilang sesak nafas.. indahnya dunia.. tapi.. da start check jadi tunai, dushum !!
abeh terus.. bayar sana sini.. kena letak sebelah untuk itu ini.. simpan sikit lagi untuk duit rumah bulan 12 and 1, then apa lagi, THANKS to Puan Rozana and MARA :D

saya sudah beli phone baru !! X3-02 !! phone lama semua rosak..kalo ikutkan ada 3 handphone dalam simpanan tapi, cantik hanya di mata. jadi itulah cinta baru saya !! jatuh hati tgk phone ni warna putih dilihat menawan, jadi saya pilih DIA.. :))))

Assignment tak Lepas !!

whoa.. ini bahaya sebabnya subjek ni 4 kredit, so dgn asgnment yang tak lepas tu, aku terpaksa struggle untuk dapatkan sekurang2nya C untuk jaga pointer aku ... dugaan atas kelalaian aku sendiri.. :) sokay, still got time to kejar the C+.. kalo tak dapat c+. aku yang menari atas api la jawabnya.. thanks untuk kawan2 yang menyokong aku, bagi nasihat.. especially senior2 DPM.. thanks untuk SA aku yang bg hadiah and semangat kt aku.. :)))) Puan Ju, sorry saya lambat hantar assignment, tapi terima kasih beri saya peluang rasa pahit manis hidup jadi student ni.

pffftttt.... where to start.. where to start !!!

it have been a while or may i say for a long time as i did not write anything on my space..
huh ! where to start babeh ! many3 thing happened to me. can i just list it down ?
hahah !! too many haa... so, im gonna list it down, and story it later.. :))))))

1. Assignment tak lepas
2. Check dari MARA suda keluar
3. Saya sudah keluar dari zon GILA itu
4. Birthday Fidut disini
5. New Phoneeee !!
6. knowing someone new
7. Exam and its FINAL EXAM !!
8. Kerja saya turun floor bawah
9. apart of my heart is totally secured

:)))))))

hurt me more

hurt me more !!
I DONT MIND
look im smilling

you never know
how strong you are
how hard the life can be
how easy your world would be
until one day you get through it

♥SMILE♥
I'VE GOT THE STRENGTH THAT YOU NEVER KNOW

♥ besties♥

have you ever been in mood happy full in heart and mind !!
i did

for the past few days i dont know why..
i put a smile on my face all the while..
even there is Niagara Falls stay at my eyes..
but seriously,i feel like there is something that cheer up my life
maybe hearts blow away the sadness
maybe light is coming on my way
where is it!!
i want it !!
light light light

♥ friends ♥
thanks for everything
give me some spirit to move on
convince me to smile
smash me with shark words
pampered me with loves..
lots of loves..

even sometimes you all drive me crazy
but its okay derr..
hahah !!
i believe BESTIES do exist
:D

kadang-kadang marah tu beri tanda
bahagia tu tak semuanya indah
hidup tak memanjang menderita

kadang-kadang sahabat tu mula dari senyuman
bila kita kenal dan mula mengenali
bila kita suka dan mula menyukai
bila kita sayang dan mula menyayangi
bila kita rindu dan mula merindui
bila kita rapat dan mula merapati
bila kita marah dan mula memarahi
bila kita benci dan mula mengingati
then it will brings u the title
SAHABAT

its not just a word
its a world
full of happiness
full of loves
full of kindness
full of sadness
full of US !!

♥THANKS ♥

♥i-CITY♥

kami

♥ love is everywhere ♥

♥ Found Myself ♥

♥Pictures and some memories will have to help me get through the life
when hope begins to fade♥

" Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again "

very touchy
rasa nak ternangis je bila baca lirik ni..
Mama
I Love You

Me
sgt menyentuh hati
mungkin terkenang-kenang kisah lama
tapi
its all memories now
i have my own way now
he doesnt care anymore
so, i will do anything and everything on my own
its all up to me

♥I FOUND ME♥

♥keep forgetting♥

Thinking back when we got together
In our hearts we were saying forever
So in love, boy we were so in love, mmm
Jealousy wasn't what we wanted, we broke up
And when you looked into my eyes I should of spoke up
And held you near, then I wouldn't be alone
And here it comes again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
All the things we did and the way that we touched
Just when I think about someone new
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around and forget, forget about you
Forget about me and you

I would be crazy to say that we were perfect
And sometimes I was wondering if it was worth it
But now I see, how could you run from me?
And everytime I drive by your apartment
I get this overwhelming urge to walk in
And see your face and to be in that place all over again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
All the things we did and the way that we touched
Just when I think about someone new
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around and forget, forget about you
Forget about me and you

The way we laughed, the way we kissed
I never though that I would miss
All the things I used to complain about you
The football games, the hometown friends
I'm just glad to see an end
But tell me why I feel so alone without you?
Ooo oh, Oooh, Yeah,
Here it comes again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
(I don't want to think about you baby so much)
All the things we did and the way that we touched (we touched)
Just when I think about someone new (new)
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
(I keep on forgetting to forget about you)

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning around in my head (head)
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
(I keep on forgetting to forget about you)
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around and forget, forget about you
Forget about me and you

Noo, Oh,
Yeah,
Forget about you

♥Leaving♥

ku Menahan Rasa Luka
Bila Kau Membenci Aku
Hanya Tuhan Mendengar
Bisikan Hatiku Yang Hancur

♥Love Then Leave♥

Bila cinta kini
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa
Di tinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Dan ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Bila engkau pergi
Tinggalkan ku

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
Merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan
Dalam harapan

...

jam menunjukkan beberapa minit lagi nak berbuka puasa...
adushhh
serabut dol kepala aku
apa aku fikir pun tak tau
mama.. i need u ma...
ayina !!!
aku mahu bahu bersandar...
i miss u both too much !!!

buah melaka oh buah melaka
menu berbuka puasa
bendi belacan goreng + pedal goreng kunyit + daging hancur + air sunquick = best!!!
buah melaka sedang ke mari !!!

rindu (^_^)

sometimes we just lose something we never have :)

♥tonite♥

tonite :
rasa rindu
rasa sunyi
rasa teringat
rasa lapar lagi
rasa mood lebih tgk I AM LEGEND

heee
need time to rest..
ptg td berjalan ke kepulauan seroja membeli barang2 untuk berbuka
maksud aku hari ni, aku memasak..
berjalan tadi rasa tenang nikmati alam..
rindu mahu berjalan..
dulu rutin sekarang tak lagi

juadah berbuka puasa :
air asam + rendang asam + air tebu = kenyang
popia goreng+ buah melaka = sangat sedap

abah call :
ibu tiri tercinta berada di sisi
untungla ada orang balik rumah
heeee

mama call :
yangma, mama nak pi sana mggu depan hari jumaat..
sebab cuti nuzul quran, boleh berbuka sama-sama..
tapi still maybe datang...

Hope so...

rindu nak berbuka dgn family...
tahun ni turun perintah
tema warna MERAH !!!
fuuhhh...

my dear sayang adik saya :
Amas, rindu la...
i miss u to babe...!!

mr. AD
i miss u too...
:)))))
heeee...
aina stop marahING k..
cannot stop this feeling...
hahah!!
but half dead hard trying to KILL it !!
help me!!!!

besok, bermula hari baru...
tolong tambah kesabaranku ya Allah...

p/s :
when we lose someone and we feel lost in world
when we feel like crying and there is no one here to share
when we need the strength to build our life and its not there
think back what we left behind all this while
we will always have HIM

♥ Life Path ♥

setiap manusia ada jatuh dan bangunnya..
terpulang pada kita bagaimana mahu menjalani kejatuhan dan bangunnya diri kita..

hidup ni sangat mudah..
cuma kita perlu terima dan lalui apa yang ditetapkan..
namun, bersediakah kita merasakan kesakitan dan meraih kebahgiaan yang kadang sementara dan kadang bahagia itu sampai akhirnya ada cabaran tersendiri..

bahagia itu sebenarnya bakal melahirkan kesakitan yang amat sgt..
dan sedih tu kadang membawa kebahgiaan yang tak dapat diungkap dengan kata-kata..

bahagia saat itu, takkan berulang lagi..
hanya sekali sahaja terjadi...
dan kerana sekali itulah yang memberi kesan paling dalam...

tapi, kesedihan, kesakitan. kelukaan itu berlaku berkali-kali dalam hidup kita..
bersediakah nak mengharunginya...
bersediakah nak berdiri atas kaki sendiri mencari jalan keluar dari kepompong kesedihan,
bersediakah nak faham hati dan perasaan sendiri...

sesungguhnya aku takut...
takut tak dapat nak penuhi rasa, kemahuan dan kepuasan diri sendiri
takut tak dapat melalui hari-hari ini sendiri...
pedih itu sangat abstrak
tak dapat digambarkan,
tapi aku masih ada mama dan abah, mama dan abah yang jadi mata aku,
buat aku melihat diri aku..
buat aku sedar diri, sedar kebesaranNYA... terkadang aku lupa diri, lupa siapa aku..
asyik dengan kesedihan diri, kebahgiaan diri..

jika aku diberi pilihan :
tak ku mahu lalui saat kesedihan
tak ku mahu buat mereka terluka
tak ku mahu tahu apa rasa terluka
tak ku mahu tahu apa ertinya cinta
tak ku mahu tabur rasa kasihku pada sesiapa selain abah dan mama
tak ku mahu bersendiri harungi dunia

tapi, aku insan biasa..
perlu semua rasa... perlu tahu siapa Pencipta
perlu lalui semua untuk jadi manusia...
semuanya DIA yang beri...
aku cuba..
akan terus mencuba
semuanya aku perlu lalui tanpa alasan, even aku menolak, ia akan datang
sakit itu yang mengajar erti kuat, tabah dan berani...
beri kita pengalaman, beri kita jawapan kepada kehidupan...
lawanlah rasa sakit pedih itu, lebih kita rasa kepedihan itu, kita akan lebih cekal menghadapi rintanganNYA, Allahku

♥ Pour the salt into the open wound, it will heal you soon ♥

♥ Ujian Untukku ♥

besok sudah start ujian 1..
study on the way datang
cepat la mari

menanti kedatanganmu bersama mood2 terindah

♥♥♥

tgh sabar menanti waktu sahur juga
jerihnya xda makanan, sedih je smalam masa buka puasa..
nak g jauh2, xda kenderaan..
hmm...
namun begitu *_* tiada linangan air mata..
masih tabah mengharungi hari keempat berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan.
Allah sedang menguji hambaNYA..
aku masih bertahan TuhanKU..
besok nak berjuang di medan Exam plak..
Mama kuperlu doa dan restu mu..
kuatkan semangatku..

dia pergi aku masih dan sentiasa ada kamu..
kepergian yg silih berganti,
mama aku masih di situ berdiri mendoakan aku...
terima kasih mama..
i miss you mama

♥cintaku mekar dihati♥
♥terima kasih mama sentiasa disisi♥

♥cinta baru♥

waaahhhh.. what a suprise!!
ive got cinta baru la..
nama dia Undernight !!
hahaha
game la..
Aoi la ni punya keja
mempromote game dia kat aku..
kan dah jangkit..
best jugak la..
tgh tgu guide dia..
yela..
nak BERCINTA kena belajar dulu..
heeeee....

so, try la join..
and also, tgh gedik dengan LEFT4DEAD
alaamaakkk...
game lg..
*bercita-cita mnjadi pemain game terhebat*

♥ a piece of me ♥

banyak perkara berlaku dalam hidup aku.
yang pentingnya, kebahgiaan dan kerisauan sedang melanda diri aku.
wahh.. betapa hebatnya cinta kamu dulu, terkesan hingga sekarang.
ataupun hebatnya cinta aku dan memberi kesan tegar dalam hati aku.
even aku belajar melupakan kau, aku masih risau keadaan kau la gila !!
u said "were friend" i said "ok"
then u ask me to go.. what a bullshit !!
sometimes i feel that i dont need u !!
sometimes i fall because i tried to forget u..

whatever it is, here and now..
im trying hard la bodo !
hardly to let u go..
im on my way, u ask for it..
then its in progress now.,happy??
i wish u cepat sembuh, need to look at u and fighting the exam week with u..
like always..
of course la aku risau.kesakitan kau tu beri aku kerisauan.
but dont worry no heart feeling..
actually , you are the best friend i ever had right now..
the only one who teach me, the hurt, the pain, the happiness,
and mostly i admit that u teach me how easy LIFE are.
thanks !!

were friend right..

♥ cerita sahaja ♥

berhari-hari, berjam-jam lamanya aku menyepi..
banyak proses da jadi.
MARA !!!
rumah !!!
majok !!
hahaha
majok lagi..

Mara lambat lg ke nak masuk,
adik aku da jerit2 berihitam2!!
aku ni da menjerit dalam hati macam2..
mama lg la..
assobru Minnal Iman

rumah baru..
teruja masok rumah..
deposit dekat rm2000 kot..
maunya xteruja..
terus nak masuk kalo boleh..
my new muchita housemate
Nana, Eeta, Ruzy
heee

bermulalah bulan puasa dimana berlakunya kisah-kisah sedih.
hahaha
Ruzy pn turut berpuasa, dan makan sahur pada waktu yang sama
alhamdulillah..
Rindu Mama, abah aina, fidut..
rindu makan kt rumah..
adoiii
ada jugak episod xtidoq malam..
tgk movie ..
tggu sampai sahur..
waahhh..
besstttt

16/08/2010 sudah mula hari pertama UJIAN 1..
Kenegaraan !!
berjuang habis2an..
sempat lagi post blog ni..
da lama sgt xpost apa2 kan..
so, this is it..
im out
time to study sambil menikmati bontot ayam
waahhhh !!!
nikmatnya !!

GOOD LUCK FOR THOSE YANG ALSO AMBIK UJIAN 1 !!

♥belom mahu beradu♥

♥jamDinding♥
menunjukkan pukol 2.25pagi
adooiii
mata xleh tutup lagi ni..
mama rindu!!
pejam celik pejam celik
xngantok2
memikir je..
nak download lagu pn xleh.. idm wat hal!!
cam shitan je!!

♥ptg td kol3♥
abah aku buat jamuan makan..
bihun sup dan pulutdurian
waahhh!!
apalagi
makan xingat la aku
setelah berpenat lelah
mengontrol pemakanan
mama maaf ye
terlebih sudah
heee

♥sudahtaklama♥
dah xlama da aku nak balik sepang
kolej tu memanggil2
alya o alya balik la sambung ngaji
hahaha
tokwan pula
alya o alya balik la teman wan
waahhh
sabar ya tokwan
sayang tokwan ni!!

♥gemok♥
awat naik sgt badan ni
awat berisi sgt ni
awat nmpak gemok ni!!
arrgghhh
sila jaga badan sendiri..
*nmpak kurus la*
terima kasih
anda org pertama dalam komuniti
kawasan umah sy cakap cmtu

♥besokmaukeluar♥
besok aku akan keluar dgn
my bff yang dah lama aku xjmpa
kau dah nak pergi pn..
bakal UPSIan
tahniah babe!!
rndu kau sebenarnya,
sebab tu aku merajuk
dah la nak p naik bas
kau nak suruh aku spend time dlm bas sorg2 without u
baik aku naik skali dgn kau biul!!
masa terisi bersama
kualiti masa kena jaga!!
M.A.J.O.K

♥nitesikamu♥
saya masih segar
mungkin saya masih pikirkan kata2 seorang kakak
syukran sis
selamat malam si kamu
terima kasih
^_^

♥ di mana saya hari-hari yang lepas ♥

♥kehilangan saya♥
pertama
*sebok dgn kenduri arwah tok saya
kedua
*sebok menghabiskan masa dengan family
ketiga
*sebok keluar dgn mama
keempat
*sebok pengsankan diri sengaja dan automatik
dalam erti kata lain sengaja membawa maksud menidurkan diri
automatik membawa maksud saya tidak sedarkan diri
kelima
*masuk hospital
ada sesiapa sayang saya angkat mata!! hehe
keenam
*saya berada di rumah abah saya sekarang
jadi, susah nak dapatkan line yang enak

♥ betapa seboknya saya♥
tidak pikirkan FB lg
kenduri arwah tok saya mengundang air mata insan2 sekeliling saya
termasuk saya
saat-saat doa tahlil dilagukan,
ada sebak dalam hati..
malamnya,
mama mahu pulang ke sarangnya,tp
aku halang..
mama duduk la sini
:)
amma akur
love u mama

♥ masa aku byk dhabiskan bersama mama♥
mama kata
♥ dah xlama lg anak mama dah nak balik, nnt mama rindu..
kalo ada anak mama, xla sunyi sgt blh jgk bertekak, bergurau2♥
mama , sayang mama sgt2 !!!

♥ pengsan♥
oh tidak.. berlaku di ruang dapur rumah ku..
nasib baik di rumah..
saat derita bila aku xsedarkan diri..
aku di masukkan ke hospital
mama bergegas pulang dari island
Ya TuhanKu
Aku sgt takut menghadapi hari2Mu
Tabahkanlah aku
Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin

♥ saya sayang diri saya♥
♥ sayang mama saya♥
♥ sayang abah saya♥
♥ sayang adik saya♥
♥ terima kasih Ya Allah♥

♥♥alya aina out♥♥

♥heee♥
hari ini !!
mas alya dan mas ai'na bergabung
kami berpoya-poya di queensbay, penang
wahh !!
aina cari kasut and law dictionary di BORDERS
adooiiii sakit hati dgn FIONA masam ni
dahla la pilih kasut dekat 3jam+ merajuk
pastu aku cari dia dlm Borders tu mcm org gila
call xjawab
rupanya dia sedang berbahagia membelek2 novel ECLIPSE
cheh !!!
dgn hebatnya berkata
"alya, hg pi mna"
oi2 cik adik
aku yg mencari hg tau x??
:)

♥makan♥
menikmati keindahan petang makan mcd bersama
lama xbuat gathering cmtu
(gathering ke)hahaha
tetiba aku lihat adik aku makan laju sgt
aku plak yg terhegeh makan burger tu
dia plak makan dgn banyaknya menghabiskan kentang gorengku
xpa la sayang, makan la
aku dalam usaha keluar dari zon makan
hahahhah

♥we've gtg♥
masa nak balik plak
aku and aina berWALKing ke PDC
pejabat mama tercinta
kami bakal pulang bersama
then kami ambik Ayong kat Jetty
teruskan pengembaraan ke kedai makan
Mee Udang Pak Ngah
wow !!!
terujanya
makan lagi babe!!
mee udang
lama da aku mengidam2 kalo ada anak
mau leleh air liuq anak aku
akhirnya !!

♥♥bahagia hari ini meluangkan masa bersama aina♥♥

♥wordaku♥

♥malam saya bosan♥

hahahahahaha

kebalikkan adinda tercinta sempena cuti jumaat sabtu (bagi negeri kedah)

tidak ku sgka begitu awal dia beradu

sangat bosan

aku pikir kami bakal meluangkan masa bersama

kutukING,makanING,gelakING,dan tidorING

together

ternyata meleset sekali andaianku

aina !! kau kejam :(

pengajaran

♥jangan sukabuat andaian awal♥

♥duduk tertengok lappy♥

dari kol 10 smpai la skang

aku masih setia dpn lappy

sdg mengUPDATE private blog aku yg satu itu

ada post yg aku terpaksa save dulu

xabes lg taip

sambil aku melayari internet

aku tercuit

membuzz seorang teman

wah!!

hmmm

nice to know ya !!

lappy ku pandang sepi

♥boleh ke♥

mcm mna nk buat ni

asyik terpanggil je ni !!

tp.. is there any hope or chance?

gosh!! there have to be!!

i need it!

semua manusia ada peluang mereka sendiri

aku pun sama

tp aku je yg dok manfaat peluang..

mcm mna ni

boleh ke?

♥saya cuba♥

saya mencuba laa ni

adoooiii ye cik pengarah

saya sedang cuba

malah saya sendiri pun tanpa di arah ingin mencuba

alhamdulillah kalo dpt goal

kalo tersasar, sy minta maaf

tp sebenar2nya saya pun kecewa jugak

♥itu yang bernama kamu♥

hey smpai bila mau macam ini

please la

there is too much words can be write on paper but

it still cannot describe how and what i feel rite now

aku menanti

:D