" I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K.
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all they say
Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize it
I have no hestitaion
My imagination just stole me away
(Still...) Still I believe
(I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

Love's for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) And i won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
(Don't wanna wake up alone anymore...) "

~ damn, aku suka lagu ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD ni ~

NichKhun Horvejkul

mama nak dia boleh ? ini bakal menantu mama (mungkin) hahaha tapi sekarang dia sedang sebok mengurus kerjaya demi keluarga yang bakal dibina. hari-hari dia nyanyi untuk i mama, through lappy i lagi :D rindu dia sangat (waahhh boleh ke) ngeheeeee.. gediks dah ni :D

saya harap mama tak halang cinta kami (kami ke) waddup !! i gila kat dia dah mommy, tolong la.
ada tak patung muka macam dia? nak beli.. sape ada jual !? tolong pm saya (hahaha)

~insane~

truth or dare ♥ i choose truth ♥

Who was your first crush?
Salman Khan (masa kecik2 nih) hahaha

If you were marooned on an island with just a single person, who would you like it to be?
nichKhun Horvejkul

Would you ever cheat with your girlfriend/boyfriend?
never, dislike hate it !

Amongst all the individuals that you know, which girl/guy would you like to date?
Dzulhafeez (waaahhhh, too dare haa)

If you woke up one day and notice that you are invisible, then what will be the first thing that you would like to do?
naik flight pergi korea cari NichKhun (2pm)

What is the meanest thing that you have till date?
hurt my own heart :(

Have you ever lied to your boyfriend/girlfriend? If yes, about what?
yes, i told my ex that he is too nice to me..

If you born again, what would you like to be?
myself :)

What is the strangest dream you have ever had?
wwf personality, undertaker came to my house and stare at me, weeuuhh.. scary

If you have only 24 hours left to live, what would you do?
tell someone something that he have to know, and i'll die after knowing the truth of his rejection (waddup )

If you get a chance to make anyone as your slave, who would you like that to be?
NichKhun :))))

If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?
NichKhun Harvejkul and kumpul money byk2.. then bila dah normal, blh kahwin dgn SangKekasihku

Would you marry your boyfriend/girlfriend?
of course ! (dengan izin Allah)

Do you really love your boyfriend/girlfriend?
i have none, but once i fell in love then it will never has an ending ;)

What is the stupidest thing you've done because someone dared you to?
menyanyi kuat2 dalam mcD hahaha :D

What's your favorite thing about the opposite sex?
sporting :)

What's the worst thing about being your gender?
tangisan

Every Had A Crush On Anyones Brother/Sister, If Yes Who?
nope

When was the first time you fell in love?
2 years ago

Which is your most embarrassing moment so far?
i keep on chasing someone that hurt my heart too much, and he was too proud of it. sucks !

Can you tell us about your secret fantasy?
no never :D

Which is the one person you really hate right now?
Dazlo

What’s your biggest turn on?
i start to erased all about him after he doing things to insult me, crap huh !!

Have you ever cheated on your girlfriend/boyfriend?
no, he did !

What is the main thing that attracts you to a person of the opposite sex?
how he treat and care for me :)

Have you got any secret talent?
ntah, ada kot :)

Pick one person to exchange your girlfriend/boyfriend with!
takkan :)

What is the wildest thing you have ever done in your life so far?
run away from home

Whom would you like to marry if there is a chance to do it?
lelaki yang perwatakannya seperti NichKhun (2pm)

Do you love to sleep with your teddy bear?
yeah, but its a moo :)

Tell us about your sorrow secret…
ive been left by someone that i really love without any concrete reasons, without feelings and he left just because all of a sudden he doesnt have any feelings towards me. sedangkan, on that day we both went out together with my family happily. shit !

What is the most annoying thing about your boyfriend/girlfriend?
too chicken to tell the truth about the reasons he wants to break up, back stabber and like to bad talk about me shit kau !

Do you have a crush on someone ?
yes, since years ago that i didnt fall for anyone ♥♥♥♥♥

What is the one thing you hate about your best friend?
suka seksa hati sendiri

What is the worst fear you have in life?
them !! people who i love the most leave me , mama:)

Have you been mean to anybody p?
sometimes towards people who are being rude to me

Have you had a crush on your best friend?
yes !! long time ago

Which was the lowest grade you received in school and for which subject?
addmath !! can i just keep that as secret ! hahah !!

Do you like to brush your teeth every night?
yes !!

Which animal most resembles your personality?
cat ! heeee

Who is most beautiful person you know (inside and out).
my mother

If you could date anyone in the world, who would it be?
1. NichKhun (2pm) ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
2. Won Bin ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
3. Mathew McConaughey ♥ ♥ ♥

Which famous couple throughout film would you like to be ?
step up 3D ~luke and natalie~

Which relationship appeals to you more, a wild passionate one, or a quiet calm one.
moderate please :) calm and easy but still got the passion

lunch de tengah hari ;)

menu 'lunch' hari ini : daging goreng asam jawa + ayam goreng + budu + timun ;)
sedap la betol, tuanku (abah) tambah2 nasi td.. budu tak sempat ambik gambarnya ayam goreng pun sama sebab dah tak menyempat nak makan heeeee :)

why not kita cuba :)
hey.. im asking boleh ke takpe?
:))))))

♥saranghaee ♥

suddenly !!! dupdupdapdupdupdapdupdupdap :))))) ouch
listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
~ beating more fast ~

thanks

♥ take your beautiful smile with you and don't leave it here because the sweetness of it makes me dizzy ♥

...
ive got too many story to tell
but suddenly something goes wrong and im feeling bad
too bad

i ll publish my post next time
not feelin well
NIGHT

dear kemek ;))))

no more FARIZATUL AYINA (bukan nama sebenar) today tomorrow and day after tomorrow and so on. i will miss u dear kemek... i'll wait for you dear, come home this week. rindu nak berguling dengan kau! hahah ! kamu kan selalu balik tiap2 minggu, jangan lupa balik pulak ;)

sedeh + insane

rasa sangat sedeh, sangat sangat, tapi saya masih mampu tersenyum

"jangan menangis hapus air matamu"

i feel like crying now

"take me away, no more mistakes"

tetiba teringat lagu

could i have this kiss forever by whitney houston and enrique iglesias

oouh, lagu itu hebat ;) saya sangat suka ~menyentuh hati~ suatu hari nanti lagu ini bakal ditujukan pada SANG SUAMI TERcinta, sudikah terima? siapa bakal suami saya? sila terjun klcc cepat.. "saya tuju lagu ni kat mr.sweet gorgeous nice and loving, sayang kamu sampai syurga" itu untuk bakal suami saya, saya nak bagitau waktu masa tinggal lagi 2 minit nak menikah (gatal dah ni) hahaha pastu saya nak nyanyi kat dia (saya suka nyanyi) mama jangan marah ye, impian jugak ni ;) agaknya dia tengok saya macam orang gila ke apa eyh? *_*

masa gaduh small matter, saya bagi lagu ni fix me up by ne-yo maaf saya terlebih gedik malam ni- jadi saya sambung cerita bila kitorang gaduh, saya bagi lagu ni. yelah, bila gaduh kita masing-masing ego then maybe sometimes kita ada masalah tapi terpendam dalam hati ni "hey hey you you, lagu ni untuk you, i mean for us, mmuah" hahah!! mmuah lagi? oppsss...

~ms.cheese caramel~

quote of the day

Kadang kala, orang yang kamu cintai adalah orang yang paling menyakiti hatimu dan kadang kala, teman yang membawamu ke dalam pelukannya dan menangis bersamamu adalah cinta yang tidak kamu sedari. :)

hey
♥ look at my heart. it's beating for you♥

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you

bluerghhhhh

sadness turn me on

cinta
hati sifat perasaan atau rupa paras yang jadi ukuran?
kekalkah jika rupa paras yang utama ?
well, supposed to be cinta sifat dan perasaan
tapi orang sekarang selalu pandang rupa je
bila dia rasa dia HOT jadi pasangannya pun mesti HOT
nilah senario yang selalu aku lihat

hmmm
bagi aku?
rupa bukan jadi masalah,
hati dan apa yang kau rasa itulah yang penting
pernah dulu, dia bukanlah "secantik" aaron aziz
tapi aku pun sedar aku xlah "sehensem" erra fazira
atas sebab sedar diri
terpesona dgn sifat dia, cara dia
maka berlangsunglah...

tapi, dia tetiba tak sedar diri(koma)
tinggalkan aku:(
orang salahkan aku, tapi orang tak tau
dan tanpa sebab aku dan dia "hilang"
lama sangat, barulah aku redha

kalau dulu, aku dengan dia saja. dunia aku bermula dengan dia
aku kenal semua benda sebab dia,
aku tahu perkara yang aku tak pernah tahu sebab dia
aku pergi mana-mana pun dia yang bawak.
semuanya DIA.

setelah dia pergi barulah aku kenal dunia ni,
aku mula berkawan dengan orang lain
aku bawak jalan sendiri, cuba terima kenyataan
aku ingat dia aku sedeh, jadi aku xmau ingat dia
aku ingat dia aku menangis,
jadi aku berhenti mengharap perkara yang tak pasti.
ada satu peristiwa yang buat aku terus delete dia dari ingatan
lepas peristiwa tu, aku percaya dia bukanlah yang terbaik untuk aku.

lama sangat baru aku sedar ,
"cukup cukuplah alya, sudah sudahlah menangis,
not worth crying because he didnt feel the same way"
"cukup cukuplah rasa sedih, penghinaan dan maruah yang dia pijak"
iktibar untuk aku sendiri.
kesedihan dan kepedihan menghidupkan aku
i do love you BEFORE, but now NOT ANYMORE
"when love comes, do not hold it too tight until its really yours"

im suffering for a long time period.
and now im happy with my new life
eventhough, JERKian always bad talk behind my back
its ok
they dont feel it, i feel it.

im smilling because i dont care


~im not lonely, im free~

♥ besties♥

bestfriend is the best enemy and the perfect lover
because he did accept "all of us" bad side and good side :)))

bestfriend will always be there for you no matter what,
even when u left them behind after uve got ur happiness,
but one day when u fall, u will see them stand besides u, smile and heal ur
wound :))))

~Alya-Chan~

setting

berhentilah menolak diri sendiri sebelum anda benar-benar ditolak

percayalah pada diri sendiri kerana sesungguhnya anda
punyai keistimewaan yang tidak dipunyai orang lain

senyumlah kerana ia penawar hati yang sakit,
ubat kepada rasa payah yang ada dalam hati

insane ;)

my heart is beating so fast for you
~dupdapdupdapdupdapdupdapdupdap~
You know that I adjusted myself to fit you
~try something new, doing some 'research'~
hanya kerna kau yang cukup indah
~sebab tu alya-chan jadi tak tentu hala~

cheh ! again ! wtFISH
please please help me
anyone?
weeuuhh,

Someone should have told me that it would be this hard


Anybody could've told you right from the start it's 'bout to fall apart
So rather than hold on to a broken dream, I'll just hold on to love
And I can find a way to make it, don't hold on too tight
I'll make it without you tonight
~alicia keys~

...

i realize something today that im not that perfect to be too choosy.
its a gift when someone choose to loves you.

there are many thing swinging inside my head
"u spin my head right round right round"

should i keep on work for it
"walau jauh akan kugegas berlari
walau tinggi bisa ku terbang dilangit"

or should i just giving up
"biarkan ia pergi Tuhan lebih mengerti apa yang disuratkan"

Happiness comes when you really work on it. And if you did work but still don't comes, rely on God and let Allah decide
~shadah khalil~

♥ saranghaeyo ♥

♥my sweet loving caring sporting abah♥
abah sedeh sebab dah lama alya-chan tak balik rumah.
alya-chan asyik balik rumah tokwan maulana
maaf ya abah tercinta
misai sudah tukar warna
sayang abah
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

life ♥♥

♥ Your life's like a book, you're the writer.
Write something worth-reading, so you won't regret in the end ♥

senyum ♥

senyumla ;) macam aku ni haa
(aku tunjuk cara senyum biar kau tau)
tak rugi pun dapat pahala lagi :)
kalo tak senyum nampak la gorgon kau tu ;)

teringat Perintah Puan

gambar ni dah lama, tapi rasa bahagia tengok gambar ni ;)
malam deklamasi puisi dan syarahan anjuran BADAR KTT
masa ni, Puan Ju dah turun perintah
"tidak boleh menolak, semua student DPM mesti sertai dan hadirkan diri"
masa tu dalam hati
"kenapalah KAU uji aku macam ni, kenapalah Puan Ju pilih aku untuk bersajak,
kenapa aku yang mesti berdiri atas pentas dan deklamasi sajak tu"
lepas dah selesai acara
"Puan, rasa nak buat lagi la"
heee ;)
lepas ni, xda lagi dah "turun perintah"

rasa hari ini

rindu kau la weyh !!
ingat kau la !!
sedeh pun ada :(
macam mana ni ;) boleh ke ^~^
selamat hari raya aidiladha
♥♥♥♥♥♥

slice of happiness, slice of sadness

malam itu, muahahah... xsempat nak upload semua ;)

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha,
korban hati korban jiwa korban pemikiran untuk lebih maju dalam kehidupan

orang kata, raya haji untuk orang yang ada di Mekah
(buat haji)
tapi, sebenarnya kita pun boleh sambut,
sebab ada jugak orang yang buat korban dan kenduri.
tunai tanggungjawab pun korban jugak :)

:::masa untuk korbankan pemikiran lapuk, bersikap lebih matang:::

hey me !!!

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you not to say
But if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words
Is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say
that you love me, yeah
Cause I'd already know.

What would you do (what would you do)
If my heart was torn in two?
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I Love You

(just saying I love you, saying I love you)
More than words
(just saying I love you, saying I love you)

Now that I've tried to (now that I've tried to)
Talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is
Close your eyes and just reach out your hand
And touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go

More than words
Is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say
That you love me, yeah
Cause I'd already know

(just saying I love you, saying I love you)
More than words

;) NICE IS IT.. Frankie J voice melts my heart ! the lyrics swing me higher :)

...

"kita bahagia dengan orang yang sama-sama susah dengan kita pada waktu tu,
tapi bila sudah senang, kita bahagia sendirian.." tidak mengapalah si KITA :)

♥ bakal pulang ke Kota Kerinduan ♥

besok alya chan bakal berangkat pulang ke kampung halaman tempat
tinggal mama dan tokwan tercinta. semenjak semalam mama asyik call dan tanya
"bila sayang mama nak balik" mama Alya Chan dah nak balik pun.. tapi, risau sgt nak naik bas..
macam mana??? nak naik tren, macam lama sangat. besok nak gerak kol 9 pagi :D
awalnya laa kn.. mama nanti kepulanganku..

bakal tinggalkan jiwa kesayanganku, NANA, tangan dan mataku, RUZY dan EETA..
jumpa lagi 3/1/2011.. huisshh.. lama lagi tu..
"pictures and some memories will have to get me through"

blog posting wat hal ;(

wtFISH, blog posting wat hal. xleh nak upload gambar, nak ubah font.. what happen !!
then, i have to hold my new post, how ;( haa?? banyak nak upload ni, ramai nak cerita..
then macam ni plak, bila takda mood nak cerita, ok je.. takda masalah..

akan pulang ke ISTANA KERINDUAN pada hari isnin, 15/11/2010...
mama nanti kepulanganku ;))))))
mmuahxs.. xoxo

hey you !!

im saying goodbye, No tears I cry for you

bahagia sangat:))))))
look im smilling again !!

:::: biar muka buruk jangan hati macam bangkai ::::

♥ Tamat Sudah ♥

tamat sudah peperiksaan akhir semester sesi 2010/2011, gentar tunggu result keluar pulak. *_* tarkoik *_* but, sangat tidak berpuas hati. macam mana ni.. PPL UPM, boleh tak saya ulang semula exam tu.. :( sedeh, sedeh, sedeh... nak ulang.. result saya bakal teruk nnt.. mama, abah maafkan aku :((((

upacara wajib setiap akhir semester ♥FAMILY DAY♥ tapi, lain sikit kali ni tukar jadi ♥GLAMORIOUS AND MASQUERADE DPM NIGHT ♥ lebih kurang la tu. kami pilih RETRO !! ruzy 2gether dgn aku cari la baju yang sesuai. teruja jugak ni tak sabar :))))

Malam terakhir Puan Ju.. da nak berenti pun Puan Ju. Beliau nak sambung Phd, semoga lebih sukses dan bahagia Puan. We'll never forget you, and we'll never leave your memories behind :))

Tamat sudah episod duka aku, berjaya keluar dari zon penghinaan yang sangat perit untuk ditelan ^_^
"hargailah diri kita sendiri kerana belum tentu orang lain akan hargai diri kita"

♥a heart goes swinging♥

:::you took my heart away:::

Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream but you
saw me through

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
you take my hand to guide me home and now
I'm in love

You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold
you are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start and now
I'm in love

Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here were we stand
we'll never be alone

♥♥♥♥♥♥ if i ever could let you know ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Exam and Its Final Exam !!

EXAM : Saya datang
aku : jgnla datang lagi
EXAM : dah sampai pun...

waaaarrrrggghhhhh !!!! tiga hari sebelumnya yang sangat stress.. berturut2 exam..
then esok satu paper lagi... (sempat lagi berblog) heee... penamatnya RABU !!! cepatlah datang !!! tak keruan ni... sebab rabu tu paper PUAN JU !!! arrrrgggghhh lg !! ketakutan kesejukkan, kepeningan kepengsanan bakal berlaku !! tolong calm me down...

Penang Raya Lepas !!!

lama dah baru diuploadkan.. heee.... uncle botak and ruzy join sekaki
masa raya lepas, :)))))

Saya sudah keluar dari zon GILA itu

Alhamdulillah, aku sudah benar-benar keluar dari zon kesedihan, kekecewaan, kesakitan, dan penghinaan.. BERJAYA !!!! if i could turn back time, setelah sekian lama.. akhirnya saya nekad.. sudah tak larat nak labuhkan air mata ni, mata pun seringkali menjerit minta cuti dr bekerja. i blow you away now.. tak tau apa nak ckp kt cni.. terlalu gembira.. all this while, i keep on crying.. tak ada masa nak senyum lelama sikit.. tapi sekarang, senyuman itu tak pernah lekang dari wajahku.. thanks to kamu yang membawa kegembiraan itu, membawa senyuman, walaupun sementara mungkin..

macam mana nk terangkan betapa bahagianya aku sekarang ni :))))
no more him, no more sadness, no more sorrow...
GOODBYE mr. AWFUL, JERK AND USELESS
same thing will chase you, ;)

Check dari MARA suda keluar New Phonee :D

dalam duka kita bersuka.. heee check mara saya sudah sampai.. sekali dua daa...
Alhamdulillah.. hilang sesak nafas.. indahnya dunia.. tapi.. da start check jadi tunai, dushum !!
abeh terus.. bayar sana sini.. kena letak sebelah untuk itu ini.. simpan sikit lagi untuk duit rumah bulan 12 and 1, then apa lagi, THANKS to Puan Rozana and MARA :D

saya sudah beli phone baru !! X3-02 !! phone lama semua rosak..kalo ikutkan ada 3 handphone dalam simpanan tapi, cantik hanya di mata. jadi itulah cinta baru saya !! jatuh hati tgk phone ni warna putih dilihat menawan, jadi saya pilih DIA.. :))))

Assignment tak Lepas !!

whoa.. ini bahaya sebabnya subjek ni 4 kredit, so dgn asgnment yang tak lepas tu, aku terpaksa struggle untuk dapatkan sekurang2nya C untuk jaga pointer aku ... dugaan atas kelalaian aku sendiri.. :) sokay, still got time to kejar the C+.. kalo tak dapat c+. aku yang menari atas api la jawabnya.. thanks untuk kawan2 yang menyokong aku, bagi nasihat.. especially senior2 DPM.. thanks untuk SA aku yang bg hadiah and semangat kt aku.. :)))) Puan Ju, sorry saya lambat hantar assignment, tapi terima kasih beri saya peluang rasa pahit manis hidup jadi student ni.

pffftttt.... where to start.. where to start !!!

it have been a while or may i say for a long time as i did not write anything on my space..
huh ! where to start babeh ! many3 thing happened to me. can i just list it down ?
hahah !! too many haa... so, im gonna list it down, and story it later.. :))))))

1. Assignment tak lepas
2. Check dari MARA suda keluar
3. Saya sudah keluar dari zon GILA itu
4. Birthday Fidut disini
5. New Phoneeee !!
6. knowing someone new
7. Exam and its FINAL EXAM !!
8. Kerja saya turun floor bawah
9. apart of my heart is totally secured

:)))))))